It’s such a common question.
For a while, my answer was “Oh, I’m just a mom.”
Just a mom.
Like I was passing it off as not much, like I couldn’t possibly be busy. Like what I do isn’t important because I don’t have an official job title or paycheck.
As a college student I am asked all the time, so what do you want to do when you graduate? And part of me really wants to be able to answer that I'll be doing some high power executive work, as if it will make me a more valuable or interesting person to talk to because I am more and want to be more than just a mom.
Its something I know a lot of women around me want to do, "just be a mom" but they would never admit it to their professors and peers in classes. Wanting just to be a stay at home mom is something so many people feel embarrassed about when really
It’s not something to be ashamed of or something that should be said with an apologetic tone in my voice.
Being just a mom is what I want to be.
I cant fathom not being able to be there for every second of my son's life. I want to be the son to put him down for his morning naps, the one who cleans up after his messy "lunches" with peanut butter in my hair, the one who played with her son all morning and hasn't had the time to put make up on yet. To me that is life, that is love and that is what I want
At some point, Hubs and I figured I’ll go back to school and get my nursing degree when our youngest is in school full-time. But, that’s YEARS away. I’m thankful for now to be able to share all the little moments with my son.
So, I’ll stay just a mom for a while longer.
And be here for every moment: whether it’s the tough stuff or the sweet, frustrating, fun, repetitive, special, or every day. In my life as just a mom, I get to see it all.
I know that to some, that seems really boring: I assure you, I’m never bored. And to others, being just a mom is something they wish they could do: trust me when I say that it has taken a lot of sacrifice to make it possible.
Though what someone else thinks of my choice to be just a mom is their own opinion and doesn’t have anything to do with the choice that my family has made.
The choice that I’m completely happy with.
Even in the midst of last semester craziness when my boy wants to run around and forget about his naps all day, when my husband is working full time and finishing his last semester of college, and I don’t get a break- I know that the right choice for me is to be just a mom.
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